Can you believe this blog is 10 years old today?!
I realized not too long ago and wated to write something nice and all, but the day ended up surprizing me...
I was so young and full of energy when it opened that blog in 2014... Back then I was super active on DeviantArt and drawing forums, barely started tumblr (the one I accidently deleted like, 4 or 5 years ago?)
Since then, and mostly those past 2 or 3 years, I've been rethinking over and over my presence online. The more it goes, the more I kinda want to escape. I like to have quiet places to archive things, mostly for me and my friends now, even though I'd love to make new friends through my interest, the way people connect online nowadays seems more and more distant and fast, to me.
Never have i ever felt more alone online. It's not even about numbers. Nowadays, even if you go towards people, comments, share, try to connect, no matter who, no matter the numbers attached to them, it seems a lot of people are now just after the numbers; Which I can kinda get, espescially if you want to brand your stuff or establish a business, and of course, after a few hundreds of followers, you can't keep up with everyone, but it seems not a lot of people are here to make friends and connect and share (with people) anymore.
Some say they're very anxious and don't know what to say. Some are scared to be attacked by other angry users online. I don't know how to feel. I keep trying to comment and connect, but I feel like I'm slowly reaching the end of my rope. Even comments on places with a lot of traffic, like, under a video on youtube, nobody talk to one another, the only time people hang on to each other is to argue. Or to tell each other automated internet sentences, like a meme dialog or something.
I already said a thing or two about interracting online. I stand by that, likes are kinda destroying the way we leave an impact, wrapped as a big numer that is so, SO, meaningless.
If tumblr p0rn blogs could like post, they would be as active and credible as your average user. Sprinkle a reblog once in a blue moon and let's go. I'm not trying to be mean, I am also guilty.
Some says it's "the younger users and their short attentions spans!" and I have to disagree. I think so much content is shoved down our faces, even when you don't follow much people, because with the social media influence so many people are 'forced' to post very regularly to stay relevant or even just to be shown to their own followers... I think the problem is algorhytm and the way social media are made as a whole.
I tried countless times to change the way I used them. Follow less people, stay on it less, not caring about missing out... But like an addiction... I can't. or mostly, there are sites that aren't meant to be consumed in a 'healthy' way. They want to shave as much ads as they can in your face (first of all, please, do get an ad blocker) and need you to stay as long as possible. Even more than fucking up your dopamine system, your mental health and all, I think it's first of all completly wrap the vision we have of the world,n ourselves and others.
How to form meaningful connetions when other people are mesured as numbers, pixels on screen and other metrics that makes almost no sense?
Anyway. Don't mind me rambling and such. I'll be here and on some other weird 'micro-blogging' adjacent website like tumblr. Where half of the 300 blogs I follow are dead.
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